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Heart of a Girl {Personal}

You showed me the heart of a girl,
And I wrapped you in ribbons and curls

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"A page is turned in this world
To reveal a little girl
With a heart that's bigger,
As it is unfurled,
With a careful cover of love that will not fail.
And the God of second chance,
Picked her up and let her dance."


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“Who am I, O Lord God,
that you have brought me thus far?
Because of your promise,
and according to Your own heart,
you have brought about all this greatness,
to make your servant know it."
--
2 Samuel 7


I've just been thinking a lot recently about my life.
Many of my friends are graduating college this coming spring,
about to start their careers they've so diligently worked for,
and patiently waited for.
Many are dating their boyfriends,
others are engaged to their fiancee's
and some are married to their husbands.
My friends are married.

Friends of mine are pregnant with children,
trying to be pregnant with children,
already have children.
Aren't we still children?!

Friends are talking about their masters degrees,
moving to new states (and continents!),
buying engagement rings,
buying houses,
traveling the world,
getting into medical school,
working 40-plus hours a week.

I think we grew up?
Headed into my fourth year of full-time work.
Pay my own bills.
Live in my own (rented) place.
Own my own car.
Buy my own toilet paper.
Eat dessert for breakfast if I want.
I feel like adult.
My heart feels like an adult. Like a woman.
I marvel at where God has brought me,
and I'm in awe of His heart towards me,
and I long to see what He has next for me.

"Take my heart, it is Thine own; it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee."

Lead on, sweet Father, I trust you completely,
with my life and my heart.
Grow me up!



Sometimes I'm a scared little girl,
and want the safety of being young again.

Show me Your greatness in any way You choose.

I'm excited and I'm ready and I trust Your heart completely.
I'm so excited about life :D

:D

"I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
...
I will lift my eyes to you."

I have been studying Philippians for the last few months, and there is this one verse that has just encouraged me time and time again.

"Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own."
chapter 3 verse 12

God is using this verse in basically every area of my life, including photography. It is so easy for me to see where I am failing, where I am not good enough, and where "everybody" is doing better than me. And I love when God just "wow's" with me with His words.
It's not about me.
It's not about me "obtaining" perfect photographer business-women-ness. It's not about me being a "perfect" photographer. God has blessed me with this job that I adore. He knows me so well! He knows how much I love my work! He knows how hard some parts are for me. He knows where I am doing well, and where I am falling short. And He will never, ever leave my side. I can press on because at my side there is a loving Father who calls me child.

Happily, I can truly say that my job is much, much more a joy and love then a struggle. As my business is growing and getting bigger, there are going to be some changes coming soon.... sit tight and you can look forward to a newer and more improved Kristen Leigh Photography very soon!

This time.

"And take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found...
Cover me, so all the world will see
That I have nothing without You"
Less than two years ago I went to Mexico. I was 16 and was joining our church youth-group on a Missions Trip. We were going to an orphanage near Juarez for a week, and I was really excited about it! However, my life was a little different...I had just gotten my precious Nikon D50 and decided not to take it :( Even up till the last night of packing I was thinking about it. I just couldn't imagine have my $450 camera and $50 lens stolen or broken. What would I do?!?! I had just made the decision that, yes, yes I was going to do photography. My whole career would be ruined if something happened to my brand-new camera! So D50 stayed home.
This trip also happened the summer before Senior year. My friends and I were the oldest going on this trip, we had one.more.year. of high school left, but more importantly we had a whole summer ahead of us before that last year.
We were loud, young, crazy and quite fun, if I do say so myself :)Its funny to me to look at this journal that one of the orphans was drawing in. That journal was half-empty, and now it is filled with quotes. thoughts, concerns, joys and scripture from Senior year and even the summer after. How did it go by so fast?I remember talking to lots of different people about my business plans. How I loved weddings and dreamed of being able to shoot them. I remember telling people how I wasn't going to school, but was going to dive into this. Some were concerned, some were really excited. I remember telling someone that I wouldn't be ready to shoot a wedding myself for at least two years. I remember sitting on the playground swings one night and trying to explain to Julie how amazing these photographers named David Jay, and Jessica Claire, and Sarah Anne were. I was telling her about the different shooting styles around the country. Being the good friend she is, she listened and at the right times she nodded her head. "Cool, Kristen."
And it was cool to me. SO cool. I wanted to be a part of this wedding photographer world sooo badly.

It literally gives me chills to look at what God has done. I still feel like that little 16-year-old-high-school-girl with a head full of dreams, a new camera and a bad addiction to photography blogs.
What happened? Less then two years later I look back and can say that I have interned with Sarah Anne, and shot about 5 weddings with her, met and shot alongside Jessica Claire, met, hung out with and shot with David Jay. My goal of ten weddings this year has been doubled and then some. Photographers who I have followed scrupulously know me when I am at conventions, some e-mail me asking me questions.
Are you kidding me??? Are you serious?
There is no logical explanation. It's not because I am a photographer-prodigy who can do things that no one else can. It's not because I am even very good! It's not because I have impeccable business skills, or because I know the ropes of the industry. I most certainly do not.
It's because of God. It's His kindness to me. I like to think of myself as someone who is adventurous, daring and has big dreams.
Well, God has taken my "big dreams" and wow-ed me. On my desk sits a little card that has been my "theme verse" for my business since I was 16. "For the Lord has blessed the work of yours hands. These years He has been with you. You have lacked nothing." {Deuteronomy 2:7}

Today I leave for Mexico, again. This time hired as Kristen Leigh Photography. And God has been with me. He is blessing me in a way I do not deserve. He excites me, inspires me and loves me. It leaves me undone with gratitude for my King!

I must go finish my packing now, but I just had to shout from the roof-tops, if you will, how grateful I am to God!

See you when I get back! Adios Amigos!

"Take my time here on this earth
And let it glorify all that You are worth
For I am nothing
I am nothing without You"

Quotes

So, I have some favorite quotes from this week aaand I am gonna blog them with some pics. Today is a cut to the chase day haha

"I am held by how humble
Yet overwhelmed by your majesty...
That you are so marvelous, God
And I am so in love with you"
{big daddy weave}"I knew that I would never remember what she was wearing,
But I knew that I could never forget how she looked"
{george banks in father of the bride}Michael: "The early worm gets the worm!!!"
Jim: "Really, he gets another worm? ...Is it his friend?"
{the office}And this whole post is a sneak-peak to my next post, which I did FORever ago!

My Mommy

Ok, where do I start.... Let's see. I guess that I will just dive in.

My mom is unbelievable.
She enjoys life to the fullest. Growing up she had a practically perfect life. The stereotypical, All-American childhood. She hoped that the rest of her life would go the same way. She headed off to a nice, Christian college with the hopes of finding "the one" and getting married shortly after. Ha.My mom was young, beautiful and very, very fun. She followed God with her whole heart, worked hard in school and was an awesome friend. I love to look through my mom's albums and see all the adventures that she and her friends went on.
She eventually graduated and became a nurse.
In the Army.I adore these pictures of her - this little 5-foot-4 blonde at boot camp. Hahah. I think that God knew that she would need Army training to prepare her for the life He was going to give her! haha

As the years passed, my mom wondered more and more when "he" would come. She loved her life, and was able to travel a lot and make many memories, but she longed to be married and have children. Her 12-year-wait finally ended :) God miraculously weaved these two lives together in a story that only He could write.
When my mom was 30, she married my dad and thus began her even crazier life. She loved children, and as a nurse worked with children. She is so tender and has such a way with kids. I love that about her!3 months before my parents first anniversary I was born (not my parents plan!), but my mom was an incredible mother. I look back on my childhood with seriously fond, hysterical and awesome memories. She would never have chosen to have 7 kids herself, but she wanted to live for God more than to have an "easy" life. I could not be more grateful for my six siblings. Having them has honestly made me who I am today. I have learned to love & serve by watching and helping my mom, but I have also had so much fun. Our life together really, really is complete fun!I feel like I have had everything. We haven't had this rigid, tight schedule growing up, but rather have gone on "adventures" and had a ball! She would let us climb the highest trees, make forts that covered the entire basement and make messes in the kitchen to "help" her. Once Katie, my little sister, drew these huge smiley faces all over the walls - most moms would be very upset, but my mom didn't want to paint over the pictures because she thought they were so cute!
We made costumes out of her sheets, broke her glassware and lost her "good tools." Once Timmy and Katie had a food fight with chili and they were in BIG trouble - chili was all over the kitchen. But, before she sent them to their room she grabbed a spoon and flicked chili at them too haha.
There is nowhere she would rather be than cheering at our games. She is most excited when we win, and most encouraging when we lose. She does stupid stuff (like, really dumb stuff sometimes!!!!) but knows how laugh about it.

The scariest day of my life was when my dad called us down for a family meeting. He prayed to start the "meeting." When we opened our eyes after he said "Amen" mom was crying. Something was not good. Our mom had breast cancer. The only people I had ever known who had had cancer, died - including my grandparents. I was horrified. Our rock and mom was sick. As the church, and our friends came together to help our family get through one very rough year, I saw my mom throw herself into her Savior's arms. She trusted Him with everything.

I remember the first day she really looked sick. I came running in the door after a class and went straight to her room. She was asleep and all I could see was a little bald head poking up out of some covers. But, in typical mom fashion, she didn't let us worry, in fact she made her sickness a memory. We would order wig-magazines and look through them together to pick a good one. In fact, she bought a big-curly-rainbow-clown-wig and often wore that to parties or just around the house. I hope that I would respond to trials like that - instead of becoming depressed, that I would love God more, smile bigger and do something ridiculous and fun! haha
Happily, my mom is cancer-free and life is very, very normal - Praise God!
She still laughs the hardest at a joke, she thinks my dad is just the funniest human alive and she can laugh at herself!
Her advice to new moms is always the same thing. Its never "Get them on a schedule quickly" or "Don't do this, don't do that" but "Hold your baby as much and as long as you can." She misses us being little and wants to take life slow and enjoy it.I could go on and on and on about her. Like how she went to every youth event, retreat, etc with me. How she gives me ideas and advice that are so helpful in my business. How she sings along to "Taylor Swift" with all of us in the car. How lets spends most of her life in her car, happily driving us to our dreams. But, I will close with this last story:

When I was in 7th grade we were watching a show called "The Jamie Kennedy Expirament" which is basically an elaborate prank show that is absolutely hysterical. Mom and I were laughing together and during a commercial break she said "See Kristen, he had something he loved to - pranks and making people laugh - and he found a way to make it a career. I bet people told him he couldn't do it, but look at him now!" I think back to that conversation often. She has always wanted me to do what I love. She has been my biggest encourager with photography. I can't wait to show her my pictures and blog-posts, because she is so exited for me. She pushes me to pursue this dream I have, and she could not be more thrilled for me. She is so selfless and is such a big part of my business and life. Whenever I hear these lines from the Sugarland song, I think of her:

"I ain’t settlin’ just gettin’ by
I’ve had enough "so-so"
For the rest of my life
Tired of shootin’ too low
So raise the bar high"

She wants me to be an excellent photographer, not a "so-so" one. I have no words to thank her for that! And for everything that I have learned from her.
She makes me so excited to eventually be a wife & mom, and she has truly lived a life worthy of the gospel!

So, as you can see, there is so much I could say about my mom- but you'd just have to meet her yourself to see how awesome she is =)Mom, I LOVE you - you are so precious to me!!!!

Friends of the Blog world...

At 6:40 Thursday morning, an airplane shall lift from Maryland soil and carry my mom, my sister and me to Illinois.

And I will finally meet Sarah Barlow! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to say to explain how excited I am. I keep typing things and then backspacing. I don't know what to say. I just am purely blessed. God is too kind to me.

My prayer for my business has been Dueteronomy 2:7 which says:

"For the Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He knows your going through this great wilderness. These...years the Lord your God has been with you. You have lacked nothing.”

I do feel like I am going through a "wilderness" photography-wise. However, I can already see how God has blessed me, been with me and has supplied me with my EVERY need. Seriously - everything.

He is good!

A Dream Job

It does not get better than this, photography wise:

(the bold stuff is my favorite parts of the job description)
I was hired to photograph three beautiful children and their family at an outdoor wedding on a cloudy day!

Cam, Bailey and Joe are the cutest little things ever! This job was definitely a high light of my photography career. Enjoy!



Faith Hill - The Way You Love Me
If I could grant You one wishI'd wish you could see
The way you kiss
Ooh, I love watching you, babyWhen you're driving me crazyOoh, I love the way you - love the way you - love meThere's nowhere else I'd rather beOoh, to feel the way I feel
With your arms around me
I only wish that you could see
The way you love me
Whoa-oooah, the way you love meIt's not right
It's not fair
What you're missing over thereSomeday I'll find a way To show youJust how lucky I am To know youOoh, I love the way you - love the way you - love meThere's nowhere else I'd rather beOoh, to feel the way I feel With your arms around me I only wish that you could see
The way you love me
Whoa-oooah the way you love meYou're the million reasons whyThere's love reflecting in my eyesI love the way you
Love the way
You love me ...

On a definitely more serious note, please pray for the Davis Family.

"And Moses cried to the Lord
'O God, please heal her - please.' "
Numbers 12:13

"Therefore, pray for one another, that you might be healed.
The prayer of a righteous person has great power."
James 5:16

Please pray, pray, pray for Micah.
The doctors' chilling news that he has less than two weeks to live does not stop God.

"The Lord sustains him on his deathbed;
in his illness You restore him to full health."
Psalm 41:3

"In Your book were written,
every one of them,
the days that were formed for me."
Psalm 139:16

"Jesus said
'Let the little children come,
for to such belongs the
kingdom of heaven."
Matthew 19:14

"Then I turned to see the voice the was speaking to me.
When I saw Him, I fell at His feet.
But, He laid His hand on me, saying
'Fear not, I am the first and the last.
I died and behold, I am alive.' "
Revelation 1

O Lord, please heal Micah - please.
Please restore him to full health and lengthen his days.
Thank you for loving this child so deeply.
Thank you for Heaven and the promise of eternity and reunification,
if you choose to take him home.
But, please heal him, Father. Please.

Life

Sometimes there just isn't enough time to do it all.
Currently blogging has been low on my priority list.
I'm so sorry!
I'm almost ready for my New York post. In the mean time, watch this video.




I've cried everytime I've watched it.
It is such a good reminder to pray for our military, their families and our leaders.
I am so grateful for their sacrifice. What a blessing these men and women are!!!

diligent like an ant

Or at least trying to be :D
I'm busy citing sources, so this is my only post today! Not too much fun, I know.


"Give your eyes no sleep
and your eyelids no slumber...
Go to the ant, O sluggard;
Consider her ways, and be wise."

Jesus, thank You for the cross!

Matthew 27:50-53
"And when Jesus cried out again in a loud voice, He gave up His spirit.
At that moment that curtain of the temple was torn in two, from top to bottom.
The earth shook and rocks split.
The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life."
And I was forgiven. Once and for all."And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you" "Now you are exalted in the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow""But for now, I marvel at your saving grace
And I'm full of praise once again"
"I can't comprehend this fathomless love
I'm gripped and amazed at what you have done" "Why would the adored become the despised
To bear all the furious wrath that was mine?"

"How awesome this mystery

Of Your fathomless love for me""Oh, how could You choose to show kindness to these?

"The ones who would mock you, and hate you?

The ones just like me?"

"Father, forgive them."

Luke 23:24

"It is finished"

John 19:30"He is not here. He is risen."

Matthew 28:6
Happy Easter, everyone!

Tomorrow: Kate's Senior Pictures!

Once Again - Matt Redman

Fathomless Love - Sovereign Grace Worship

a debtor to mercy alone

Every morning that breaks
There are mercies anew
Every breath that I take
Is your faithfulness provedAt the end of each day
When my labors are through
I will sing of your mercies anew
And when the storms swirl and rage
There are mercies anew
In affliction and pain
You will carry me through
And at the end of my days
When your throne fills my view
I will sing of Your mercies anew


This post has nothing to do with photography - at all. I've been reading the blogs of the parents of these two beautiful children - Alivia and Micah. Both are incredibly sick (one has leukemia and the other a brain tumor). I don't actually know them, but reading about the incredible trials these families are going through has really been heartbreaking - and also has made me extremely grateful. When I came home from school today, I cried when I read Alivia's moms' post.

Here is a part of it:

I'm tired. I want to go home.
I want to take a real shower that hasn't been used by strangers.

I want to cook for myself and my family.
I want to have a vacuum. I want to check my answering machine.
I want to go to the grocery store.
I want to stand in my closet and figure out what to wear.
I want to take Alivia outside and let her play and run and be normal.
I want my baby to be healthy.
I don't want to discuss if she needs another blood-transfusion or which anti-fungal medicine to put her on or how much morphine she needs to be comfortable.
I want to bake a cake and sing "Happy Birthday" and let her get icing from head-to-toe.
I want her hair back. I want this all to be over.

Almost every post she asks for prayer. So, please, pray pray pray for Alivia and Micah. I know what it is like to have someone you love be sick, but I cannot imagine what it must be like as a mother or father. Please pray.

Their blogs are:
(pictures are credited to each child's mom)

"and they shall call his name..."

"Immanuel"
(which means, God with us)

Last night our family went to go see "The Nativity Story" and for the first time this Christmas season, I was moved to tears about the unbelieveable miracle of Jesus' birth. I cannot believe that that is how the Savior of the world was born. I can't believe that Mary obeyed, despite the cirsumstances she was in. I can't believe Joseph remained faithful and trusted God, even when it seemed crazy. I can't believe that prophesy after prophesy was fulfilled as Mary and Joseph made their way to Bethlehem and had Jesus. God is simply amazing. He truly, truly is.


Last day of school in 2006: Some classes went all-out to decorate their room:After going outside in the drizzle and mild coldness...... for some American and European football with Mr. B (I won't put up any other pictures - way too embarrasing!...)...we went to the rockin' Christmas party that student council put together.The party featured a bake-off (Julie got to fulfill a dream and check it off of her list! She was a food judge!),
... some special, festive costumes...
...DDR...
...Leo......and a moon-bounce!
It was super fun, to say the least :-)


Later that day, Skweegy and I pooled our building-skills together and constructed two gingerbread houses with the kids.

The icing was sooooo hard. My arms were sore the next day from trying to keep the mixer in it the bowl.
(Lyd and I broke into our own version of the slightly-sad-country-classic "Concrete Angel": "Through the water and the sugar, it stays hard as a stone, in the bowl that we can't lean up on... Concrete Icing!")

It stayed up! It stayed up!The kids were relatively patient while we constructed the homes and they were so excited when we finally called them up to decorate!
Looking good...
Priceless. Possibly one of the ugliest little things ever, but I love it so much. And so do the kids. And, most importantly, it is still proudly standing in the kicthen (with fewer and fewer candies on the roof as each day passes...)!!!
hmmm. yep, that's the way we do it...

Merry Christmas everyone!

"...things too wonderful for me." psalm 131:1

"i see trees of green,
red roses, too":
"i see them bloom
for me and you":
"and i think to myself,
what a wonderful world":
"the colors of the rainbow
so pretty in the sky":
"i see friends shaking hands
saying 'how fo you do'":
"they're really saying
'i love you'":
"i hear babies cry
i watch them grow":
"they'll learn much more
than i'll ever know":
"and i think to myself,
what a wonderful world"


"And He will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."
Isaiah 9:6

hmm...i like rainy days...

psalms are wonderful on rainy days (so are cheez-its, squishy pillows and driving the basketball carpool while singing "independance day")
"when i look at the work of Your fingers, what is man that You are mindful of him?" psalm 8:3-4
"praise the Lord from the earth...
mountains and all hills...
fruit trees and all cedars...
beasts and all livestock...
kings and young men...
maidens and old men and children!" psalm 148:7-12
"let everything that has breath praise the Lord!" psalm 150:6 "whatever the Lord pleases, He does, in heaven and on earth...it is He who makes the clouds rise...who makes lightning for the rain...who brings forth the wind..." psalm 135:6-7
"for a day in Your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere" psalm 84:10
i can't wait!


ps. "puhhht um up, puhhht um up! i'll fight 'cha on wun foooot."
who else loves the wizard of oz?" ladybug and and i do.
scarecrow: "well, now, that's getting personal"
tin man: "ya, why don't you get up and show him a lesson?"
:-D